WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

Everything happens for a reason~ I think I have been mentioning this phrase for almost hundred times. lolz. Think before you judge something. If things happen in such a way, you have to think what went wrong. If you tend not to bother and just let it be, isn’t things getting worse? Think of what people say previously, Think of your action…and then change. Change in order to solve the ‘crisis’. ~Recalling back to crisis management~ hmm…:P

Merry X’mas once again! The night before christmas….I was extremly happy when I finally bought the MAN U T-shirt. I’ve been searching for it since last week…from midvalley to The Curve to Pavillion and at the end…spot it at Sg wang. Lolz… However, sad case happen…I overspent..sigh~~~ Sadnya saya. ‘I ain’t rich lo’ but people keep on saying I am. wtf… Now I have to control the usage of money~ T.T 

*If santa would grant you one wish, what wish would you wish for?*

-I wish I can have more money to spent…lolz, juz kidding…- But I do need money~ Honestly, if santa really grant me one wish, I would give my wish to anyone who really needs it. -Merry X’mas-

Finally everything comes to an end…what I mean here is the Recycling Campaign. Or maybe I should say everything comes to an end but it leads to the beginning of a new page perhaps. Sounds complicated huh? Felt exhausted throughout the whole event…Standing for almost the whole day, only went to washroom at night etc. However, I enjoy throughout the event. Get to work with different ppl and lotsa stuffs which I appreciate. Proud of the aluminum team…although at times there are some misunderstanding and conflict, but I think we still can manage to go through all of the obstacles right?

I still can refresh back what happen on certain things which I should have forgotten it. Im disappointed, hurt and sad…If you could understand my feelings, you would know the reason and wouldn’t ask why. I wouldn’t think anymore and I will get things out of my mind!

Time to relax A BIT after the event. Caps lock A BIT as parents mumbering that final exams is around the corner…lolz! Went to watch movie, shopping(buying clothes for cny), clubbing(surprising?) Overbudget!!! Need to buy lotsa stuffs but money not enough. Sigh~ Gotta plan wisely, think wisely… I haven’t buy christmas gifts for few of them. -.-

Merry X’mas everyone!!! May this festive season brings you joy & happiness Enjoy peoplessssssssssss~

-World without you, everything will back to the starting point-

初时见他，是碧海蓝天下的黑衣。

说实话，没有丝毫惊艳之感。

他就是在这么平凡之中显出了不凡。

胜就胜在眼神，家财万贯, 傲慢无理。

脸上总是带着玩世不恭像是热血小青年般，

对某人说那句：“我就是看不惯你含着金钥匙出世。”

他总以利益来衡量一切，

但也有真心的时候第一次认真的样子，

就是生日时，放下一切的去陪伴母亲

曾经迫于生计出卖肉体的母亲，

当天却不料遇上母亲以前的老顾客，

眼里传递着一份冷冽，

他支开自己的母亲——就如母亲当年接客时总是支开他去买烟一样。

他将十几年来的愤恨通通宣泄于那嫖客身上。

他回家，什么也没有说。

他没有说，他在香港举办了自己的生日会，他却没去。

他没有说，他介意的是自己当时没有能力改变生活现状，

而不是母亲的职业。

他没有说，他介意的只是母亲还放不下。

他总是这个样子，口是心非。

这个男人，自尊得可悲，但开了口又如何？

他需要的从来不是同情。

他有时用钱来补偿一些事物，

他不善表达自己的情感，

他将所有感情都藏得很好。

而我们只可以从言片语中去捕捉他的感情。有次他将过往的一切若无其事地说出来，
“自己的妈妈在家里做妓女给你买饭吃，你会不会跟别人说？这个世界不是我要计较谁高谁低，而是这个世界根本就有高低。当你穷的时候，就用你的本事去挣钱，当你很有钱的时候，再用你的真本事，赚到最多钱，最有钱，之后的事情，你就什么都不记得了……”

她用花瓶伤人，伤了自己，也伤了他。

他赚了再多钱又如何？

还不是站在街头对着烟盒发泄。

还能如何？

以前是。现在还是。

不要以为那段悲伤独过后，就不会再悲伤。

不要以为当坏人，就会伤害到别人

最终还是伤害到自己，不是吗？

不要以为当好人，就一辈子是好人

别人会当你是吗？

别人会珍惜吗？

两者悲伤。。。谁又会懂？

         Finally I hv recover. If not can’t go out for that few days. Glad to have knew some new frenz. Thanks for their concern of my safety. They were asking whether I’m afraid of going back or traveling alone. Honestly, I’m not. Haha! Juz got a bit la, but it was ok. I’m independent ok! I always pray whenever I go out alone…pray that I came back home safe. I had a great time this few days. I miss How Lih…miss his smile and jokes. He was a superb entertainer even though he was just 8 years old. Now I know why Bowie adores him so much. Not only Bowie, Kenny & Maggie adore him too. So do I! J

We 1^st met at Pavilion, 2^nd day was much more fun as I follow Jessica’s car to 牛车水when How Lih sat beside me and that’s where he…

- Taught me eat chewing gum & fries at the same time :p

- Feed me fries, what a cute boy!

- Compete with me and see who is the stronger one, I lost miserably. Haha! I did let him win a bit, but I can say that he is really strong. Got muscle summore, not bad heh~

- I luv the way he say thank you. So sincere.

- Jokes & non-stop talking throughout the journey.

         During dinner that time, at first, Jessica’s sister- Joanna sit beside me. How Lih want to sit beside with me, so he ask Joanna to let him sit beside me. J He even gets some fruits for us to eat too. The last day, after sending off them, I walk with How Lih that time…we share a lot of stories. He told me his secret which I promise not to tell anyone, especially his mum. Then he asked me the feeling of roller coaster and the solero shot, and I said we can go together next time. When I left that time, he keeps asking me to go to his house and stay overnight. Then I said how about you coming to my house. Haha! I’m going to miss him a lot. -Miss the way he calls me jie jie-

Hope to see you soon. Remember to study hard ya, smart boy

Been not feeling well since sun. Morning till evening - diarrhoea, then at night fever. That night I was editing Mr Chuan’s assignment Monday morning feeling better but in the noon, fever strucks again. Tuesday, fully recover frm fever but then diarrhoea hits…Aww…Take medic but still like that. Moreover, I still need to do my thesis.

Finally, can’t take it anymore, went to consult the doc on thurs morning. Now feeling slightly better but I lost my appetite. I dun feel hungry anymore…Can’t finish my food…I also dunno what went wrong. It seems like my health condition is getting weaker, especially since I study at KL. I’ve been falling sick for many times Sickness pls stay away frm me.

Next week is pre-event and also my thesis deadline. All the best!

Tag from Fresh J

[01] Name: Kuan Ye/Kandrix
[02] Nickname: erm…’ah yeah’ & lots of nickname..aiks!
[03] Married: I’m still single lo
[04] Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
[05] Gender: Girl…Female
[06] Age: 21
[07] High School: SMJK Ave Maria Convent Ipoh
[08] College: Tunku Abdul Rahman College
[09] Height: I forgot but I know I’m not that tall :p
[10] Weight: 44kg
[11] Do you like yourself: Sometimes yes, sometimes no
[12] Piercings: Ear piercing…juz 1 J
[13] Right or left: Right
[14] Are you a freak: Do I look like one? Haha!
[15] Hair: long…black…straight..what else?
[16] Skin: soft? Hmm…
[17] Allergic: cockroach…*scary*
[18] What are you doing now: This tag and downloading video
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: Erm..Thesis (chap 4 & 5) –hopefully…
[20] What will you do 10 years later: Can’t predict

MY ONE AND ONLY
[26] You found your another half: Sadly to say…No
[27] If yes, who is he/she: No
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: Erm…u know who…haha!
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: No…
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): huh?
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Erm…yea…
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Im still single ok…
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: erm…
[34] Ever argue with your other half: I think I will…hehe
[35] You with your other half since: still single
[36] Are you straight/lesbo: Straight
[37] Reasons you love your other half:Love has no reason
[38] You and your other half in which stage: -
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: -
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: Im still available J

FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: Can’t remember
[42] Your first enemy: Nobody can become my enemy lo
[43] The friend you love the most: Secret..
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1 only): No enemy
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: is HER J
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: is HIM J
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Fakers, act as if they know everything…
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: Liars
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: No
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: No
[51] If your friend backstabs you: Hurt
[52] If your friend betray you: Sad & Hurt
[53] If your friend woo your lover: Speechless
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: See whether I hv feel a not ler..hehe~
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: Go ahead…:p

STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: Erm..erm..erm…ask my lecturers..lolz
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: Sure, if not I will DEAD!
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Ms Winny
[59] Always late to school/college: Sometimes only la
[60] Your class: ???
[61] You love your seniors: can I say like?
[62] Senior who you love the most: like all of them
[63] Your classmates good/bad: of coz good la!
[64] Excellent result classmate: The one who tag me. Proudly present Fresh/XinXian

[65] Laziest classmate: sensitive question wo..hehe…