WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

凌晨三点还在上网
全部人入睡了
其实我不快乐，这首歌播了又播~

你是你而我是我
那条街还是一样
每次走过泪就掉落
我不想受到伤害 所以不会再有那样的感觉~
我不要犯错 所以才提醒自己
一直微笑
‘其实我不快乐’
在喧闹人群之中
还是会寂寞，还是想躲进暗黑街角

泪尽可痛快地流落 不知哪日才会走出来呢？

~只好退避~

Going back to the corner where I first saw you or you first saw me. Compared with now…any changes? People do change…and I’ve seen people who change. It’s good to have changes but if it is a negative one, it is kinda sad. It’s been a drastic change for me since my secondary years. Previously; I’ve been wondering why people do not understand me. Actually, it’s not important as those who understand you are those who really do. I never said I’m the perfect and the best one. Just be myself~ that’s what I always do. I still remember my 2 mentor asking me questions like why I don’t do that, why I did that…I just give a smile but as years pass by, as things change, they already knew the answer. As I say, those who understand me will know why I did certain things and why I don’t. Thanks for being thoughtful as always and guiding me to the right path. It’s God’s gift to have both mentor who always guide me.

There are few branches in front and it’s time for choosing the right path. Honestly, I do not know which the right path is, what I want and whether I can do it. Do I really want it? Is that what I want? ‘The only thing that keeps me wishes on a wishing star, here’s the song in a car, I keep singing on and I don’t know why I do’ – reflects my emotion. Stress…Torn apart…I couldn’t express my thoughts and feelings. Feeling so frustrated. How I wish I can express it out. 

I would like to share something over here as I think it is meaningful after I read through my cousin’s blog. Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of life we live. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee. Brew the coffee, not the cups. (Quoted from Joachim’s blog)
Enjoy your coffee!’
‘The happiest people don’t have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything.’

Back to hometown to relax a while. But Im not relaxing at all~ My mind was thinking about recycle tagline…logo…thesis. Faint~ Im in the creative & design department for the upcoming event. ROFL…because Im not creative. BUT whatever tasks was given,  I will always try my BEST to COMPLETE each task! No worries ^^ Thanks for helping me, daniel. I really…truly appreciate ur help. Thanks a bunch!

Finally got ‘Your Love’ album by Raymond when he came to M’sia for the promo. Hope u recover soon ya! I’ve been searching this album since sem break. Finish watching ‘The Four’…my mum watch the last episode with me. lolz~ I keep on asking her ‘he is handsome right?’ She didn’t reply then I make her nod :p

Sorry, hv to release my emotion here for this very last paragraph. I am who I am, Be whoever I wanna be, Do whatever I want! Just leave me alone ok! I do not need u to teach me what to say…how to say…whatever… Keeping silence doesn’t mean everything is ok. I just want peace. Therefore, it’s better to let it be…I mean let me be~

- I’m emo-

- I’m just acting-

- Please leave me alone-

- Please do not hurt me, stay away from me-

- If you could understand me, you know you won’t do that-