WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

“It’s hard to wait around for something that u know might not happen, but it’s even harder to give up, when you know it’s everything u ever wanted.” So ppl would always wonder whether they hv to give up or hold on to something? No matter it is regarding relationship, frenship, studies & others… it’s hard to make a decision as once it’s gone, it’s gone forever…It will be too late to regret.

At times, I wait for something which I knew it would not happen, but at times I choose to give up and let it go just like that. What is right? What is wrong? Who knows? Except myself…but I’ve always regret on what I’ve done. Well, don’t cry over the spilt milk…but it’s useless as I just can’t stop thinking about it. How I wish I can let go everything….giving up certain things…free my mind….But no matter how many times I say, my mind just oppose everything. What am I suppose to do? How I wish there is someone who would really, truly understand me! I’m really tense…Most importantly, I’m exhausted. I really need a break. My emotion can be described by using low key & high key. Sometimes anger just arouses…then the next minute I feel down… I think I’m going to murder myself soon.

That day, I got this opportunity to watch the competition live. I really want to thank Tris and her gang for making my dreams/wishes comes true. Although we knew each other not long ago, but I truly appreciate. J I was glad to meet each of them. Thx again!

-I’m tired of being the girl whose heart is broken but still wears a smile-

I always have this kind of thought… ‘No matter how hard I work, I still lose’. Negative thinking and that should not appear in my mind. But I still fail to do so. I’m really sorry and truly apologize to those whom I let them down. I really try to be tough but I’m lying myself. I ain’t that tough, everything is just acting. I try very hard to hold back my tears whenever I just think about it. How am I now? Pain, that’s what I felt. Honestly, I’m really tired…Tired and fed up with all the things happening and spinning around. I do not know what to say, how to answer, how to reply…Speechless, tired, hurt that’s what I can say now.

Sorry that I bring bad news again. Pls do not say sorry to me as I’m d one who should say sorry. I felt guilty when u say sorry to me.

Thanks to those who encourage and console me, especially those whom I just knew not long ago, u all still care & concern about me. I truly appreciate it.

I need some time to cool down and stand up once again. Guess I’ll be ok after that.

-It’s a bad day-