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Care or not care…

How can u let a person know that u care for him/her? Whenever these question pop-up in my mind, I tend to doubt myself. Did I really care for the person? Did I take any action? Both answers are clearly a Yes. Then, why do I doubt myself? It’s because of certain reason and what I received was negative… I always think whether what I did is enough, whether it is the right way, whether I taken the right path? I guess doubting myself is the biggest enemy. Just don’t feel right about myself. Care or not care? But I chosen to care… Anyway, I just want to say from my bottom of my heart that I really…truly care about those whom I care.

-Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had?-

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Internship….

Tomorrow will be going back to KL as the 3 months internship will begins on Monday. A whole new challenge for me…wondering what is awaiting for me…Hope everything goes well & all the best to me! But my life at KL would be boring as there won’t be TV as an entertainment for me. sigh~ *miserable* Can any1 sponsor a TV set for me? :P

Finally, I’ve just finish watching the korean drama. Nice drama!!! Simply luv it… Well, I just mop the floor, wash the toilet…clean up everything before I leave ipoh…Just to help my mum ^^ , a daughter’s duty :) lolz

That’s all for now…got to pack all my stuff~ :(

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CNY celebration…

Chinese New Year celebration has ended for me as all of my cousins have gone back to s’pore and penang. Well, let me recall back what I have done during cny. We hardly spent time at home during cny, the schedule has packed. Lolz…Spent most of the time at Grandma hse. During the chinese new year eve, I went to the shop and help as there are lots of customers who shopped at the last minute. Then, we had our reunion dinner at grandma hse. J Lots of dishes…a variety of them…*delicious*

The first day of cny, we went to grandma hse. Then, some traditional Chinese customs such as serving tea to grandma… This time, the Yau’s family joined us but they arrived at noon. At first, my bro and I were chatting with Michelle. Then, 6th & lai sum joined us but then my bro & Michelle went to my grandma’s room to watch the others playing PSP…Then, 6th & lai sum talk about my future, my dreams, relationships, comparing Takeshi Kaneshiro & Tony Leong Chiu Wai)à I prefer Tony!!! J  …Lots of laughter. At night, it was ‘luk-luk’ time for us. Enjoy eating the food, taking photos by Joachim (a new hobby for him), playing ‘cho dai di’ (whoever loses will drink *beer*). After that, I had a gathering with my ex-classmates at Erin’s hse. This is also the first time I reached home around 1am which everyone has slept. Luckily, my bro opens the door for me, if not I’m going to sleep outside. My cousins were making fun of me that I went for dating but actually I’m not!

The second day of cny…we went to the shop for lion dance and that’s where my uncles, aunties, cousins bought lots of stuff back to s’pore. We even ate McD! (See…we eat again!!!) Next, went to popo’s hse for lunch…and at night went for dinner at Restaurant Tai Thong. All the sumptuous dishes just make me non-stop eating again. Haha! That night, I drank beer, champagne, wine, XO (specially trained by cousins) * doink* Simon says I need to drink it after each dishes…well, I pass!!! Haha…but my face is sooo…red! I’m still conscious. ‘Do u hv bf? Who is the guy u like?’ These questions were asked to test whether I’m still awake or not. Haha! I’m ok…I’m conscious… :)

The third day of cny, we had our breakfast + lunch at Restaurant Tai Thong before bidding goodbye to the Yau’s family as they need to went back s’pore. (Joachim needs to study for his exams) All the best in exams ya! Later, we planned to go Indulgence. It’s a treat by kfc (kow foo chai/7th suk), but unfortunately full house which we end up having our dinner at Moven Peak. Western food (my favourite), Grilled Australian Lamb Chop, French fries, ice-cream, cake…*yummy* Then its supper time, we supposed to have our supper at Ong Kee/Low Wong but full house. A lot of people…most of them are tourists. Everywhere was just filled with people…sigh~

That’s my cny celebration…

- We took lots of pics, especially taking family pics (our favourite). We have 2 professional photographers which is kfc & Joachim.

- Due to those nice, delicious & my favourite food… I’m pampering myself by eating…eating…and eating non-stop, the result is I’m fat! I really ate a lot during cny. U can see me eating non-stop. I need to exercise now, need to be slim. lolz… KL will be the best place for me to reduce my weight.

- Adults asked about studies, internship, and future…cousin asked about scandals, boys & gals relationship, and gossips!!! (I’m single, but not available…That’s what I’ve told them) Simon says he will help me but dun think I need help…hehe! Just let it be! Oh yea, thanks for supporting my dreams…J Truly need support, especially by family members. Thanks. Will try my best to achieve it!

- Stephen Koh (my very cute nephew). He is the son of my cousin, Marianne and Simon Koh. Love him so much! So adorable…He was like a celebrity among us and we are like paparazzi. Lolz… *Miss Stephen lil  baby*

Michelle has flied to Brisbane. All the best to her, Christine and Celine. They will be furthering their studies at Australia. How I wish I could fly to Australiawith them…enjoying homestay, enjoying being Alone! So that, I can leave all the sad memories behind and had a new beginning over there. I should have leave Malaysia after my Diploma but there are a few probs. Unless, I obtain full scholarship and that would be a different story. Anyway, it’s over. I should look forward…

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The ‘RAT’ Year…

Wishing all my family and frens a very Happy Chinese New Year. Thanks for all the cny wishes…There are more than 20 msgs in my hp. Received the most smses this year…Thanks again. Sorry if I didin’t reply any smses ya! May the year of ‘rat’ brings joy, happiness and whatever u all wish for…may ur wishes come true~

I myself really wish for happiness *Make A Wish*. Let all the sadness and problems swept away and stay away from me. At times, I rather I could be alone…I do not understand people anymore…I dunno what they want…I myself dunno what I want too. It’s complicated…becoming more and more complicated! Looks like I’m tired already…I really do not wish to turn out any argument with anyone. Please do not force me to do so. Feelings are hard to control & it seems like bursting out after hiding it for a long time.

I hereby apologize to those whom I have hurt, ignore them. Sorry for being emotional.

Thanks to all the great frens whom I hv just know recently. I truly appreciate this friendship.

~Happy CNY~

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再见。。。

你。。。

可以不要教我应该怎么做吗?

可以不要教我应该怎么走吗?

可以让我走我想要走的路吗?

我真的累了。。。

我不要再依赖你了

也不要再听到你任何的消息。。。

你过你的生活,我过我想要的生活!

我们各走各的,好吗?

我求求你,放过我吧!

很想抛开眼前所有的一切,离开那冷漠已久的世界

静静地去寻找一格平和之地。。。

不过我还记得我对你许下的承诺

我会永远守着那个承诺。。。

美丽的事物或回忆总是那么的短暂,

脑海里的回忆也因此离我们而去

该是时候离别了。。。

再见。。。

这该是我对你说的最后一番话,也是最后一次与你相见。。。

原谅我好吗?

日后,我会一个人生活,心也就此封闭

这时刻,眼泪慢慢地流。。。

~结束了~一切都结束了

我的避风港也就此消失了

过几年,伤应该会好一点吧!

~必须放弃不属于你的,才有位置容纳属于你的~

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