这是我第一次没有接受你的劝告及意见。。。真的很矛盾也很抱歉！我知道你所说的都是为我好，可是我自己决定了。是固执吗？往来，你给于我的劝告，意见。。。我全都接受，可是这次怎么会例外呢？我也不知为什么！反正，我所做的决定都不会判定我的前途，这是我告诉自己的答案。也是我想要告诉你的答案，可是却开不了口。自从发生了某某事后，我变了，是这样的吗？好多好多的疑问，可是却没有一个疑问是有答案的。我不在乎别人怎么说，我只想知道你所说的。我变了吗？你觉得我变了吗？可惜我永远都不能得到你的答案，因我只会把所有的事埋在心里。另外，我也选择逃避所有的一切，往前走。。。走向我的梦想。。。只能这样想，这样逃避，才好过吧！ 也许是这样！每次告诉自己该放下了，要坚强，不要再依赖你了可始却终是放不下。你不要再理我了，好吗？你的关心与关怀只会令我越来越依赖你。。。你的忽冷忽热态度会令我感到忐忑不安。。。放过我好吗？让我一个人好好的生活好吗？
-对不起-
Tomorrow is the day….exam day!!! Statistical Analysis for Communication is the first paper. Kinda worry…Worry that I can’t do well. Worry about many stuffs nowadays, especially internship. I was really afraid that I could not concentrate. I’m really, truly touched and glad when I receive ur msgs just now. It really encourages me and I want to thank for all the things u hv done. I never know that u care and concern about me so much. Thanks for ur prayers and a hindsight that is given to me. Hindsight : ‘Mobility should not become an obstacle to pursue what is more important’. (I will keep that in mind) Aim High—> That’s what u hv told me. All these make me feel so touched till I really want to cry…I will try my best not to let u down. Promise to study hard!
Exam is around d corner again. It will begin on 17th of Jan till 25th Jan. When it’s exam, I’m stress, moody….whatever it happens, it happens! I’m truly, madly disappointed with all the things happening around. A mask was given to hide all the disappointment and sadness. Suffering~ A lot of things to be done, why am I the one who has to do all those stuffs or clean up the mess? WHY? Arr………just feel like screaming as loud as I can, or could I just scold someone just to release my emotion? ‘You have be tough, you have to study hard…’all these encouragement will just flash pass my mind by two of my therapist. I’m glad I’ve met them, one who listens the confession of my broken heart, another would be guiding me by scolding, given advices to me. Although, we seldom met, I still remember all the things that u have said to me. I will try my best not to let down or disappoint those who has expectations on me. Last semester results were unsatisfactory but I’m surprised that all of you were quite satisfied with it. Maybe that’s my expectations…sigh~
My expectations + others expectations =stress/overstress?!?
This semester’s subjects are tougher…Really hope I can do well. In d mean time, Malaysia Open 2008 will begin on Tuesday. All of the players have arrived today (including ‘him’) ~ thx to my friend who told me everything~ hehe :p I will be going to watch for maybe 1 or 2 matches. Hopefully my dreams come true…No worries, I won’t neglect my studies. Even though, I do not like to study but I will never do that! If I go for the matches, I will have to really study without any distractions. This also means 100% concentration ^^ Hope I will do well in exam. Pray for me…*God Bless*
-All d best in exams-
It’s 2008! A brand new year for everyone. Supposingly, a brand new year for me too. But I’m stucked at somewhere…can’t figure out what is going on…
I had many bad moments in 2007 and my performance in 2007 was a drastic drop (I mean my performance in studies & whatever it is…) I guess that’s the past I should have forget about it. I’m really sorry to some of them who had given advices to me before the 2nd semester begins BUT I let them down. I accept and listen to the advices that u gave but I did not take any action. So disappointing~ If u could know how disappointed I am…how useless I felt…
What’s my New Year resolution for year 2008? I have no idea about it. Just hope that everything would be better and not worse. May I be tough…May I be brave…May I look forward and forget the past…Let bygones be bygones!
如果说我们相遇是个奇迹
如果说我们相识是个缘分
一个我 一个你 两个人来自不一样的世界
我还是会等你吗？
曾经以为可以坚持，但有些缘分是注定要失去的
所以，我该放弃了。。。
趁我还没越踩越深时，我是时候放手了！
这时刻。。。我的心跳为你而停止了。。。
-KY-
