WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

1021 要你好看, is the day that filled with happiness as I met all of them, see all of them perform on stage and of coz the grand final of Star Idol at Arena of Stars, Genting. Glad to meet all of them…They all perform well that night J This is the first time I attended such an occasion. MayJune is the winner for Star Idol. Congratulations to her, I’m surprised to see her sings, she sings well. All the best to her in d future. My dear MJ, she really did well that night. Her performance is great, I’m really proud of her. Her hard work in improving her Chinese really impressed me. I scream & stand on the chair…haha! I think my frens never saw me do that b4. Kinda active that day. lolz..:P I’m touched and sad when I saw her tears roll down. Although that is the tears of joy but I still went near d stage & tell her not to cry, because I also feel like crying. I want to hug her that time but dun hv chance. MJ, I will always support u..jia you!

Then, I went on stage & take pics with them. Finally, I can take pic with MJ,Tee, Faye, MayJune, Duncan, Lex, Ivan, Kyo, Hishiko, Monday, Son, Duncan, KS, Funny, Akit, Doll, Anerly, Yen, Jummy, Josh & others. Thanks ya! After that, all of them have buffet & also press conference at the show room while we waited them outside. Once I saw MJ, I’m so happy….a big hug frm her. J Lots of hugzz…as I thought we will bid farewell but then I met her not only once, so I got many many many warm hugzz…..make me feel so touched. Thank u so much! Muakx…I chit-chat with some of them. ^^ *Happy *

Before they leave Genting, I meet all of them once again. Bid farewell with all of them. So sad that time…especially when I talk to MJ that time. First time hv this kind of feeling of ‘不舍得’, although I juz knew them not long ago. But now I’ve started to miss them ler… Thanks for being my friend. Glad to have known u all. I will treasure each moment that we have spent together. Trully appreciate! Not forgetting those new friends that I knew at Genting. Nice to meet all of you. Hope we can meet each other again…Lot more to say but I just try to summarize it all. Keep in touch! Take care ya!

昨天蛮开兴，也暂时让我忘掉那些烦恼。终于可以与他们见面了。。。还有新朋友，Boey。不过时间真的很短，没有机会与他们谈天。我只与MJ谈的比较久。。。她以为我不会来，可是我答应我会到的  Here am I, hehe! 看到fun也在真的很惊喜因为之前她说在外国，不能回来。应该是那些heroes送她来吧！哈哈！

玩游戏令到我与他们有更近距离的接触。当时的我，不知怎么有点害羞。谢谢MJ叫我上台，让我跟Ivan 一组玩‘夹面包 ’，超好玩！Ivan真的很友善，令我对他留下深刻的印象。Tee 与Faye 真的很可爱，很搞笑！好喜欢他们。。。最后，与他们合照留念。希望你们喜欢我送的小礼物，有些还没收到因为没有机会。谢谢你们记得我，也谢谢Boey，很开兴和荣辛能认识到你们。

1021，我终于决定去了，之前我还犹豫不决呢。。。我与你们的约定. 到时见！你们一定见到我。

最近用华语来写blog ，平衡一下。不然，我的华语就渐渐退步了。就来知道考试的成绩了。心情如何？了解我的人就知道我真真的心情是如何。。。明天要回KL了，要开始新的学期。。。其实新的学期已开始了，只是我还没回去吧了:p  这一次的假期，我很少出去，拒绝了很多人。。。真真的原因也很少人知道。抱歉！有两位是我无法拒绝的，因为她们知道也开导我。谢谢！新的学期，希望一切顺利，梦想成真！

我终于找到他了，可是他变了，我已认不出他了。。。差不多八年了，感觉如何呢？对他的感觉也便了。。。人可能就是这样吧，要面对很多变化。谁又能阻止变化呢？渐渐地，我也变了，变到什么事情都想自己一个人去面对。是独立还是坚强呢？我比以前坚强了可是当我面对同一个问题时，却感到很无助，很弱。。。

这世界上有两样东西是我们用钱买不到的。最珍贵的东西和不属于你的东西。所以就算我付出多少，结果还是一样，受到伤害的还是自己。得到或得不到，结果还是心痛。给比得更辛福快乐。。。

忙的时候，想到休息。假期时，却想到未来。后悔当初没有下定决心。只能对自己说。。。往前看吧！是时候改变了。。。

给你的一封信，

渐渐地，我该放弃了。。。放弃并不是我想要得结果，而是你的忽热忽冷态度使我觉得累了。我对你的关心早已成了冷漠，陌生已取代了熟悉，最后连习惯性的問侯都消失了，换來的只有等待。。。因为等待这两个字却换来了无奈和难过，连情绪都控制不到了。失去的东西越来越多，包括快乐甚至自己的灵魂。在你面前我却要伪装。。。我累了，是时候放弃了吧？

懂得放下，才能快乐的活着。这道理是你教我的，我应该放下这一切，也该把你忘了，从新开始，是这样的吗？这是你想看到的结果吗？要放手这一切是一件不容易的事可是我已试着不要依赖你了，慢慢地，我会忘了那些回忆。。。我会开始学着一个人生活！最后，放弃真的不是我想要得结果。。。

做你想做的事，过你想过的生活吧！我会好起来的。。。

愿你辛福快乐！