WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

A heart filled with tremendous love and hope?

Not anymore…

A heart filled with tremendous pains and scars?

Definitely yes…

Heart is breakable,

Heart is fragile,

Once it breaks,

The pain is unbearable,

It will haunt you anytime, anywhere,

It is unforgettable and left a scar behind…

Time will heal the pain?

Doubt about that!

Heartbreaks…Heartbroken…Heartless…

Don’t break this fragile heart again!

Help me mend this fragile heart…

So are you able to keep my heart safe and avoid it breaks?

If not, don’t make a promise…stay away…

©2007 K.Y Leong

-Watashiwa kibunga waruidesu. Dokoga itaidesuka? Shinzo….-

Because of u,

I never hide myself…

Because of u,

I can be myself…the true self of me…

Because of u,

I try to be happy…

Because of u,

I can cry in front of u…

Because of u,

I try to be tough…

Because of u,

I can go through each obstacle…

My life can change because of u,

No matter what kind of problems that is ahead, I’m not afraid…

Just because of u are always there for me…

Just because of u, I can keep holding on till now…

Just because of u, I find my light that leads to happiness…

Just because of u, all my happy endings can come true…

‘Because of u, from incomplete, I become complete’

©2007 K.Y Leong

-18 Sept 2007, 1.40a.m-

Here is another poetry of mine. The inspiration of writing this poetry suddenly appear in my mind. Well, it’s also specially dedicated to my therapist. Love writing poetry whenever I have the inspiration to do so. Feel free to drop me any comment. Thanks.

Finally, exams have over and my long awaiting semester break has begun. But unfortunately, I don’t feel overjoyed about it. The feeling is totally different from my diploma years. This exam was…truly…deeply… a disappointing one. Should I say this is the worst exam that I have ever did? My feeling is indescribable…Blame it on me! Blame me for not doing well!

Once I’m back, the first person I called is her, whom is my therapist. She said I push myself too hard and worry that I will sink into depression. I don’t think I push myself too hard, but I’m having inner-heart/hidden depression due to disappointment of exams. Now, I just pray and hope that I pass as I can’t accept failure once again….

Looking forward for semester break. Will be going back to Ipoh next tuesday. Wish to have a nice rest before another new semester begins…Happy Semester Break to every1!

Exams again! No matter how, I still have to sit for exams. No doubt….Sigh~ The word Fail/Failure cannot appear in my dictionary. That’s what I always tell myself whenever exams come but it’s also the word I’m fear of. Hence, stress occurs! Thanks to some of my frens who have confidence on me in doing well for this examination. From there, I gain my confidence. As, I myself don’t have confidence in it due to the failure that I have experienced before. I am trying to run away (stupidity thought, but that’s me) BUT yesterday I got my exam slip, which means I have to accept the fact. Lolz..Exams for 2 weeks, 5 subjects…Strive for it! Kuan Ye aka Kandrix will be studying in order to get er…excellent results?! No matter how, will try my best. All d best to those who will be sitting for exams!

Study Mode is ON

FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Calls your parents by Mr. and Mrs.
BEST FRIENDS: Calls your parents DAD and MOM

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you sayin
"We fu**ed up … but that shit was fun!

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry. [until this year, this was true. -.- bad results tend to make me bawl in public]
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your shit and tells you, "My bad…here’s a tissue."

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I’M HOME!"

FRIENDS: Are only through highschool.
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Yo drink the rest of that you know we don’t waste."

Those whom I called friends are those whom I know, hang out with…….Best friends? Erm…Those points that hv been mentioned above. Hmm…Hard to find one ya…