WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

How did I fall in love with you?

How did I break apart with you?

Here you are standing in front of me…

Here you are staring at me…

Here you are smiling at me…

Here am I standing in front of you…

Here am I looking at your eyes…

Here am I looking at your smile…

You are the one I care of…

You are the one I dream of…

You are the one I want for life…

When you’re not around,

Life is empty…

Life is a nightmare…

Life is meaningless…

I try to avoid…

I try to smile…

I try to stand…

I try to be tough…

But I failed, it makes me become weaker

I’m sinking…

I’m drowning…

I’m falling…

Losing you in my sight…

Losing you in my life…

Losing you forever…

I can’t imagine my life without you

Every time when I close my eyes, all I think is you,

I’m really afraid of losing you…

Thinking about all the things that we have done…

Thinking about all the things that we have shared…

Is it really the end?

Each moment,

I’ll stay with you…

I’ll be there in your heart…

I’ll be there for you forever!

Although it’s hard,

For you, I’ll never stop…

For you, I’ll give in everything…

For you, I’ll take the last flight out…

This is my promise….

My promise to you…

As you will be the one I care…

You will be the one I dream of…

You will be the one I want for life…

“You & Me”

Can we start all over again?

©2007 K.Y Leong

I’ve been looking forward to this day since I’m at KL…I’m really excited as I’m going to meet my frens & lecturers. On that day, I drive to Kampar. After persuading my dad, he finally allows me to drive to Kampar. Once we arrived at CDK1, we were all busy dressing up…wear the gown, purple colour hoot, mortarboard…This was d 1st time to wear this gown so it’s a mess! LOL! Luckily, my coursemates help me out. All of us help each other…That’s d spirit of DPR! :p Did I look like Harry Potter when I wear the gown?

Then, all of us marched into the auditorium. I’m looking for my parents….was wondering where they are but I can’t find them. SigH~ Then, followed by the lecturers & VIPs…Our ‘big shots’ (lecturers) is so smart especially the only one who wears fully purple gown, so unique…the Only One! LOL! Presenting—->Dr. Cheah (Applause) haha! When it’s our turn to recieve the scroll, we are nervous…I juz dunno y I keep on making the same mistake during the rehearsal and also on that day of convocation. I’m like rushing to give my name to the marshall, Ms Ng is the one who stopped me again. lol…paiseh! Lucily, I still remember to look at the camera when I received the scroll…hopefully I got a nice-shot!

After d ceremony, I was looking for my parents…It was crowded! I received a bouquet of pink & red roses with a lovely teddy bear frm my parents. Thanks to them! Some of the lecturers thought my bf gave it to me. I’m still single & available ler… All of us were busy taking pics…it was tiring but worth it. We even hv a group family pics where each of the DPR parents took together. Well, I really luv my teddy bear very much, even Dr Cheah luvs it. I was saying that the bear looks like her as it wears fully purple gown & she was saying that the bear looks like me due to the mortarboard. So, the conclusion is the gown looks like hers & the mortarboard looks like mine. haha! Whenever I’m with her, I’m juz like a kid who was being pampered…:p She also lend me her mortarboard to wear which I felt surprised that she did so. Anyway, I didn’t wear as I’m the one who should study hard and achieve it by myself. Eventhough, it’s hard but I’ll giv it a try! I think I’m not giving too much effort as what I did in Diploma. (Pls pull me up frm sinking)

Later, we had our buffet lunch at Grand Kampar Hotel where we chit-chat with some of the lecturers. I didn’t really get to chat with some of them…but I’m sure we will meet again soon. Well, convocation has over. Instead of being happy, I’m kinda sad actually…feelings that I couldn’t know how to describe.

A memorable day for the 1st batch of DPR who graduated in TARC Perak Branch. Congratz! All the best to all of us…Hope to see all of you soon. Heading back to the stressing studying life at KL again! How i wish the break could be longer? Till then, take care, all my frens…Miss those who can’t attend! Take k gals…

两个月就这样过去了，你与我的距离是近或远呢？

我一直都很摸糊。。。

我只知道，世界依然美丽，天空依然晴朗！

只要你快乐，辛福。。。

一切都足够了。。。

愿你往前走， 当你觉得累了，就回头。。。

因为我会永远站在原地等待这一天的到来！

我知道，这道路好难走

可是我就是选择了这道路

我累了。。真得很累。。。

我该放弃吗？ 该放下一切吗？

就算有多么的坚强，我也不能克服和面对所有的困难。

我好想去我想去的地方，做我想做的事，过我想过的生活。

这样可以吗？但是。。。

为什么不管我怎样走，都仿佛在原地呢？

为什么我不断陷入在困扰中?

为什么我就得不到快乐与辛福呢？

难到我就不可以拥有所谓的快乐与辛福吗？

我越来越没力气了。。。

我怕我再也无法走下去了

我知道是你给了我希望，可是。。。

当我真的没有力气时，我就会选择静静地离开

小天使会永远守在你身旁

愿你永远辛福，快乐。。。

对不起！

Well, this is my first chinese post. LOL! Erm…I use 2 days to complete it. *faint* I have to utilize my chinese in order to know how to write…if not, i’ll don’t know how to write a single word….If there is any error, I apologize ya!

I’m back to ipoh already. Juz reach ipoh yesterday night. Almost 1 month didn’t come back….and now I’m back for convocation which is my big day!!! Today, I drive to kampar for the rehearsal and collection of gown. The gown looks like harry potter’s attire…haha! I persuade my dad to allow me to drive. LOL! Luckily he allows. I got to meet my beloved lecturers whom I miss so much! When I saw them, I was like a small kid & manja them..so paiseh! Can’t control my excited feelings lo!There is so much to do but so little time! Haiz…I’ve wanted to meet up with my frens. Wish I can have more time and stay longer at ipoh so I can spend more time with all of them. Sorry to those who I’ve left out…I promise to catch up with u all on sat ya!

-A single day is enough to make my day enjoyable and memorable-

Kinda get use to the life at KL now…slowly I adapt the life over there. Live life to the fullest…Life should be enjoyed! Thanks to my therapist that supports & lightens me up even though she was not at KL with me. I promise to be tough as I’m going to achieve my goals & dreams ahead of me. Well, of coz I still miss ‘those days’… miss a lot of people…Those who become my therapist when I’m feeling down. Wish to confess everything to them… Miss u all a lot!!! Hope to see all of you soon.