WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

I just finished reading my friend’s blog and now it’s my turn. I’ve alwiz wanted to avoid this moment to come, but I still have to face d reality. That’s life…hv to move on, if not I won’t progress. The last class of last semester was saddening. I already tried to hold on my tears but once we took pics and embrace each other, my tears roll down…Wye Ceng laugh at me pulak coz b4 that I said I wont cry. LOL! I’m quite a sentimental person, so when I faced this kind of situation, tears will juz roll down. 2 years of pursuing Diploma at TARC has juz ended. Time flies! How I wish everything has juz started! College life is totally different frm secondary. I nvr had this kind of feeling during my last class at secondary. Feel heavy-hearted…:(

A lot of flashbacks appears in mind this few days. I still remember at 1st I nvr thought of studying at TARC after SPM, it was my parent’s decision. I’m glad they made the right decision and I really nvr regret about it as I met wonderful frens and lecturers. I spend most of d time with them…We study, play, shop, watch movie, eat, rush assignments…….together! So, it’s really hard to bid farewell with each other. I… still remember I failed 2 subjects in Year one, Semester two. It was like the end of the world…sounds stupid huh? But it’s how I feels that time. Thanks to my frens & lecturers who support & guide me that time. When Im sick, sad, happy…thx 2 all of u who accompany me.

The DPR 05/06 alwiz gave the lecturers headaches…All the jokes, laughters in class are unforgettable. Tonnes of assignments that we completed at the last minute…how dynasty family is formed…I’ll definitely going to miss everything at Kampar…Verison, Ghany, Tin Xing Yun, Hawana and many more. I think I’ll miss Ghany the most as I spend most of my midnight there…yumcha, chit-chat. My favourite supper is ‘Indo Mee Kosong tambah telur mata’ and ais kosong. Even the ‘ah-neh’ there knows what we want.

Exams is around d corner. It’ll be the last final exams at TARC. Hope I can concentrate as my mood swings this few days. All the best to all my friends in their exams. Gambate! Wish all of us could walk the graduation line together! Anyway, still hv 1 week (exams period) to spend at Kampar.

Sincerely thanks to all my coursemates & beloved friends who support and give me all the nice memories when I was in TARC, kampar. I would also like to take this opportunity to apologize to those whom I’ve disappointed or hurt them. Sorry ya! Not forgetting to all the lecturers who taught, guide, mould my lives and leave big imprints in my mind. Specially thx to Ms Liew & Dr Cheah. I will try my best to make you continue to feel proud of me. Thanks…

I guess that’s all. Guess Im too long winded in this post. I wouldn’t like to continue anymore as it reminds me of separation and I’ll sob…sob…again! :p Gd luck in exams!

Dreams r supposed to be d inspiration for what we do in the ‘real’ world. I hv a lot of dreams…some of them has become reality but some still remain as my dreams. Sometimes everything has planned, but it nvr went smoothly…which makes me feel frustrated. In the end, I alwiz end up being moody and unhappy. (That’s my feelings for this few days) Whenever I’m down, u will approach infront of me…as if u know that I’m unhappy. U giv me lots of advice, guidance & support throughout the whole conversation which lessens my burden. U said I’m tough but remind me not to force myself to be tough as if I become too tough…it will leads to over-confident. So when ppl tell me it’s wrong, I will not listen and keep on doing d same thing. I will keep that in mind forever… This is the 3rd time u pull me out frm sinking  I guess I owe u a lot. In my life, meeting u is a treasure as I learnt a lot frm u which makes me become strong, tough……. Thanks! I think d only way to repay u is keep all ur advices & guidance in mind and used it to improve myself.

Sometimes I wonder what I want to achieve is really what I want…I wonder whether I did all those are for my own good/bcoz of other ppl? I myself don’t know the answer. Sometimes I even wonder whether I’m really happy or trying to be… I remember someone told me that nobody will understand u coz u r d only one who understand urself. Is it true? I can’t even understand myself…I juz know in my life there are only 4 person who can make me trully happy and deeply sad. That’s what I’m clear about myself.

-Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we care about to leave, but the truth is it’s not our loss…it’s theirs because they left the only person in d world who would never give up on them.-