WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

I dislike rainy days. Not that I dislike raining but whenever I look out from the window that is raining, my mood will become very down. Rainy days brings a lot of memories & stories of my life. When Im TRULLY happy, raining accompany me. When Im sad, raining will also never leave me. That is why raining brings a lot of memories. I alwiz tell myself not to think and work hard for what Im doing now but my mind alwiz betray me.

Is it when I choose to be silent,

ppl will notice that Im not exist?

Is it when I choose not to smile,

ppl will really notice that my tears rolling down & hurt?

Is it when one day I left,

ppl will only understand what is care/treasure?

Today is d time for us to gather. Thx 2 erin who fetch me & yin man to jj. All of us hv our tea-time at Jusco’s Secret Recipe. Omg…d food was very expensive lo. I juz ordered a slice of marble cheese cake as tat is d cheapest.haha… Well, Yin Man aka Brain brain is still so naughty & still looks like cili padi lol. She still likes to play & bully me like last time…tickle me all d way. Every seconds, she tickle me lo, make me jump here jump there like a stupid kid. haiz…naughty brain brain. Shu Yi is still d same…Chian Woon is prettier. Evon is also d same except her hair is curly now. Get to meet Anson & d other little baby(4got his name). Both of them r very cute..:) hehe!!! Till then, hope to meet u gals next time. Will miss all of u. Take k gals!!! Muakz…

Watching World Championship Badminton now. hoho!!! The next World Championship will be held at KL, Malaysia. Hurray!!! Im goin to watch. I wish to go!!!

-Manusia mahukan perubahan tetapi manusia tidak suka diubah-

I’m so relieved right now…It’s like letting go everything in d world. haha!!! Finally exams has ended today…I duno how I fared in this exams but I already did my best. If my best is still not d best then I dunno what to do anymore. haiz..Dun wanna think about it. Juz free my mind 1st. Now, I juz wish to enjoy my semester break. As usual, online, watching tv, or maybe shopping… Luv watching MY GIRL(korean drama)!!! Lee Dong Wook very handsome…hehe. My type of guy!! I will be meeting with my frenz this sunday. hoho…Shu Yi, Yin Man, Evon, so long din meet u gals dy especially Yin Man & Evon. It’s been almost 2 years ler..since after SPMm v nvr meet each other dy. Miss u gals so much!!! Hope to c u all this coming sunday.

Watching One In A Million juz now. Suki has won…proud of her. She is younger than us one year. Look gorgeous!!! Haiz…Duno y I feel sad…haiz…Only GOD knows!!! :/ During this week of exams, I’ve been alone studying. Maybe I tend to be alone and tat makes me think a lot, most of them are sad.

~I do forgive you but what you did changed what we used to be and what we are now. There is still a hole in my heart. It will never be the same again.~

The 1st paper which was PRST has over… Past is a past so look forward to d future!!! Tat is wat Im telling myself this past few days so tat I won’t think back what I hv done if not I dun think I can concentrate on other subjects. There are still 5 more papers to go…Haiz…When will it be over?!?!

WHAT HURTS THE MOST

i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don’t bother me
i can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
i’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me
there are days every now and again i pretend i’m ok
but that’s not what gets me

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was tryin’ to do

it’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but i’m doin’ it
it’s hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i’m alone
still harder
getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
but i know if i could do it over
i would trade give away all the words that i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

not seeing that loving you
that’s what i was trying to do

Luv tis song very much. U can listen d song frm my profile. WHAT HURTS ME THE MOST is same like this song moreover When u do so much things 4 a person but d person do not even know and they juz find u when they need u. After that, they will never find u!!! ~HURTS~*heartless* Do u know how I feel right now?

Wat is exams? Oh well…Im acting stupid, hope to run away frm this "war". haiz… But still I hv to face it. Exams is around d corner, d 1st paper is Public Relations Strategies & Tools (Cik Noor’s subject) which is on Friday. When exams is near, I alwiz tend to think negative. Yea, Im alwiz being negative. *Punch me!!!* Will I do well this time? If I fail then how?…….All these questions keep on appear in my mind. Sob…sob…:( But there is alwiz angels whispering…telling me not to give up. I remember 1 angel told me to be positive, study for urself not for d others. The other angel told me, y look down on urself? Nobody is perfect….Thx to both of these angels who try to cheer me up. I will try my best. Hope "u" can giv me d strength to go through all these obstacles. To everyone who is having exams…all d best to all of u. Gambate!!! Gd luck.

~I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think. Can I? It’ll never come true…not now and not in d future~

Today is d last day of Year 2, Semester 1…I think I will miss this sem. Although there is a lot of ups & downs but I will nvr 4get it as there is 2 more semester left. Muz appreciate each moments i have. The last day of tis sem is very hectic as we rushed to pass up our ‘Take Home Test’(Cik Noor’s subject) b4 9am. Juz slept 4 hours today, cant really wake up as my alarm clock has been ringing non-stop and Im still in my dream-land…thinking tat it was some kind of music. *duh* After passing up d test, i went back to discuss the Public Speaking wif my group members. Later, rushed back to college again to meet Cik Noor. Guess wat next? She gives us another test which is ‘Open Book Test’. haiz…All of us went to study room & do d questions as she needs us to pass up today. *faint*…All of us r telling each other where to find d answers. After finishing d test, it’s time 4 presentation. Our group got d best presentation. hoho…Kudos to everyone. Hv a great time there…Thank u. What hv I done tis sem ler…I juz know tis sem is very very hectic till everyone is very busy. But all has ended now and it’s d time to ‘berperang’ again. *CRY*!!! I need a break…help, help. ‘ u will support me rite? ‘

"I’d run the other way than stay and see the smoke and who’s still standing when the it clears."