WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

Are u happy? Dun ever ask me this question…Although it’s a simple question but I really can’t answer u. I nvr thought of this question b4 untill that day when my lecturer say that he can know what kind of person r u. He says Im a jovial girl but dunno whether Im really happy a not…maybe im hiding my sadness. Then I ask myself…Am I really happy? I dunno… I juz know start from tis semester, my mood is not steady. But most of all, I get angry easily. I dunno what happen to me. Moreover, I get influence by my frenz…if they r unhappy, I will feel that too…haiz…I feel strange during tis semester…Giving up!!! This 2 words often appear in my mind nowadays. Am i going to give up soon?

"When one door closes, another opens;

but we often look so long

and so regretfully upon d closed door,

that we do not see the one which has opened 4 us…"

It’s a long journey

Till I dun know where I’m supposed to be

And I don’t know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes

I am lost and know that I must hide

It’s a long journey

Till I can’t find my way home

Many days I’ve spent

Drifting on through empty shores

Wondering what my purpose is

Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter, I know I will cry

I know someone is standing by my side

And I need to be tough

Sometimes it feels no one understands

I don’t even know why I do the things I do

When pride builds me up till I can’t see my soul

Will anyone break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it’s a long & tough journey

Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friend turn to foes

It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

World Cup is going to end soon. Tonight will be the match between Italy & France. I dunno which team should I support…as none of the team is my favourites. Germany won the bronze medal..:) Kudos to them. I like the Germany’s coach, Jurgen Klinsman. hehe…The most coolest and handsome coach. haha… He has done a really great job as a coach for Germany. How nice if he’s England’s coach. The Germany coach is obviously the hottest world cup coach for this year.

I’ve been having strange dreams all this while. I dreamt about brochers…..Long story but most important it is strange. Muz be thinking of doing the flyers & brochers and in the end I hv all this kind of strange dreams. Many things that I want to blog but lazy…Many things in my mind now. Dunno which comes 1st? haiz…. *Tiring*

Watching the quarter-final between England and PortugalDuring the 1^st half, England and Portugal slowed their game. After the 1^st half, both of the teams started a real battle and that is where Beckham get his foot injury and next he was out of d World Cup. He’s crying…1^st time saw him cry. Pity him…That time, I really hope England can win as Beckham really put a lot of effort as a Captain. After few minutes, Wayne Rooney was sent off. At 1^st, everything is fine and the game can goes on…when all of a sudden, Cristiano Ronaldo came in and argues with d referee. It’s not Rooney’s fault and it’s not even a heavy tackle. Y dun u mind ur own business? Hate Ronaldo now. He’s once my idol as he’s one of d Manchester United player but now… Then, Rooney started to push Ronaldo…and in d end, referee sent him off by giving a red card. OMG!!! Rooney juz pushed him, he nvr even get serious injury. The referee can juz giv him a yellow card. Y red card? Rooney was so angry and he said F*** off!!! If me, I will do that also. Stupid!!! Rooney and Ronaldo are teammates in MU; I wonder what happens in d future?! Damn!!! I was so angry to see the referee!!!! I dislike the referee in this match. What happen to the referee for world cup this year? Almost all the referees are worse. S**T!!! The referee made a lot of mistakes!!! 1^st, he sent off Rooney. 2^nd, it was clearly a handball by Portugal but there is no action taken. 3^rd, it was a penalty for Lennon after d tackle by Portugal in d penalty box. WTF!!! Is d referee blind? Is he 1 of d supporter for Portugal? S**T!!! For d penalty shoot-outs, I felt disappointed for England. Dunno what is happening to all the players. I thought I can depend on Paul Robinson to be the hero as he save the balls throughout d match but unlucky he can’t shine. The only player who scored d only penalty is Owen Hargreaves. Frank Lampard, Steven Gerrard & Jamie failed. It was a poor spot kick. Felt disappointed with them. Lampard has 30^th shots on target in this world cup but he failed to score a goal 4 England. L What more can I say about this match? A loss which saw Coach Sven-Ericsson resigns. He won’t be England’s coach anymore. It’s a defeat which hurts badly…How can it end like this? It’s a terrible way for England to go home. It will take a lot of time for the hurt to go… Anyway, credits to Lennon, Ashley Cole, Terry, Ferdinand and others who have done a great job in defending. Ericsson is a good coach… He alwiz hv faith in his players. For example, b4 world cup, there are a lot of critics about Beckham. Some advice him to change captain but he nvr do so as he hv faith in him. He is indeed a very good coach but unfortunately he can’t coach England anymore. LIn conclusion, FIFA is stupid…they hired stupid & blind referee. F**K. And…Brazil lost to France. Well, I suppose to be happy but for me England’s lose means the end of d world cup. Have to wait 4 years again….I will definitely miss England!!!

was like sitting through a nail-biting film. I hope and wish there would be a happy ending where Englandwill win but it was not a dream come true. Everything comes to an end when England lost to Portugal on penalty shoot-outs. Last few years, England lost to Portugal on penalties and now it happens again.

p/s sori 4 those rude words…I need to release my emotion.