WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

Staying at home make me feel bad…Juz now I was watching tv and my dad was like y are u watching tv? U dun hv to study? When u can get ur results? When is semester 3 start? Im telling him that the results will be send to home like last semester…His expression was like does’nt believe what Im saying. What am I suppose to study? MEM…EP…LAW…?? If I was still in secondary school, he told me that, I will sure study la but I’m already in college and it’s DIFFERENT. Then I’ve been told to read those Smart Investors magazine which relates business and as u know, I dun hv interest on that. I thought Im having holiday and it’s juz only last for 3 weeks. Can’t I enjoy my holiday for this 3 weeks only? I din even quite enjoy this holidays. I juz stay at home…din even hang out wif frenz…when i want to watch tv, i will get scolded by them. Y can’t they understand my feelings? Y am I still under control by them? I’m really upset now. During exams, I’ve really studied very very hard and now I juz want to relax and enjoy this holidays…..Is it so difficult?? In that case,I rather go back to college…and it’s better that I dun hv holidays.

Currently feel : upset, sad, disapppointed…*cry*

Many ppl think I’ve change dy…dunno whether it’s good or bad? haiz… But I hope u guys can tell me if it’s bad. Nowadays, I hv high expectation on myself dy…I dunno y I hv this kind of feeling. Maybe bcoz of my childhood days that reflects me of who I am today. I dun want to go back to the past that is y I hv high expectation in everything I do now. Im looking forward to the future where I want to be a successful person. I hope I can achieve my dreams…                 My life,my job which is at…the place that I want to go for….

Currently listening : Yi Sheng Jue Wang by Junyang * a very nice & meaningful song*

Im really disappointed with u…Really disappointed. Aren’t frenz should trust each other? Y u say those things to me? U say all those to me means u do not trust me. U thought being at this post is very proud and easy? U thought I’m happy with who I am now? Looks like u don’t understand me. Well, I don’t blame u for not understanding me but I’m very serious when discussing about studies or work. I will NEVER JOKE when comes to that kind of discussion. If u suspect my ability or do not trust me, pls tell me and I will resign. U nvr thinks other ppl’s feelings or situation 1st, all u think is about urself. I’m really disappointed with u now…Looks like I hv to change now…hopefully during semester 3, it will be a different side of me.

Recently, I am watching a tvb drama called " WAR AND BEAUTY ".This drama had obtained several awards in Hong Kong. So I have this good impression about this drama and so I decided to watch this drama. Until then, Im still watching this show (episode 8 out of 30) because it is only aired during weekends at astro. It’s a repeated show actually as it has been aired last year. Well,this show practically talks about war between the concubines. In that show, the concubines trying very hard to win affection from the king. Good way or evil way? Of course the hard and evil way. Most characters in that show are pretending most of the time. Fighting each other with evil plans. One thing I learn is to tolerate. It is really useless to just fight back straight away. Always be calm when handling these kind of situation. I am quite sad to watch there are actually so many EVIL plan around in the dynasty. Well, this is the real world. I admire the actors and actresses acting, their acting is very good especially Bowie Lam, Charmaine Sheh, Gigi Lai and others.

Currently chatting with a fren of mine who actually understand the real me…the real me who alwiz hide inside my heart. Well,Im really shocked and surprised as only this fren of mine can understand the real me. I really learnt a lot tonight…Thank u so much…I really appreaciate that and will nvr forget whatever u told me tonight. Thankx again!!!

Our trip cancelled dy ler…haiz. Looks like Im goin to stay at home during this semester holidays. ~Boring~.. Anyway, Im already used to it when I was in secondary school. During holidays, I will be staying at home wan. Well, I will be on9 and watching tv. Luckily, this year my hse hv astro. Not so boring anymore… Besides that, I will do household and also hv to make an annual plan 4 SWC. Being a leader is not an easy job ya!!! It’s ok…I will take it as an experience and improvement for my life. In the mean time, hv to wait 4 Erin to come back..Then she can fetch me back to our alma mater, AMC and oso meet up with Shu Yi. Valentines day is around d corner. Wish every1 a very Happy Valentines day, especially to those loving pairs.

*Currently listening : Rainie (Ai Mei)*

After exams, staying at home very boring ler…haiz… I cant escape from helping my mum to do those households anymore, no more excuses. hehe.. This few nights, I alwiz had strange dreams ler..Exams is already over but I dreamt about having exams and I still memorize those facts about Public Relations…Then yesterday night’s dream is more strange. Dunno how to talk about it…It’s juz strange. I think exams are getting me crazy dy..haha.. When Im having exams, I dreamt of those "things"…so horror and now it’s strange. Haiz… Well, having holidays is good and fun but it is also boring ler..  My dad is going to Bangkok today 4 marathon. Wish him all d best.

Finally exams is over la!!! Hurray!!! haha…feeling so relieve now. Finally,everyting is over now. Now I juz hv to pray and hope for the best..In the mean time, Im not going to think about exams anymore,if not I’ll get crazy. haha.. Well, I’m so worried and frustrated during last night as I tend to forget what I’ve read before. Was so tension… On that time, I’m so stress till I wanna cry and nearly give up. Thank God…I hv a bunch of very good frenz of mine who supports me till the end. Thank u so much…:) In the end, I survive during the last battle. Thankx..Appreaciate that!!! After the PR exams, I was so relieve. And I did sumthing quite embarassing lol. The invigilator announced that the 1st and 2nd row can leave the hall. Im from d 3rd row and preparing to leave. Once she say sumthing, I already stand up. Actually she din even finish saying, I already stand up. Then I feel weird as Rhea who is sitting infront of me din stand up and i was wondering y r they not leaving the hall? And when I look back to jennifer, she was sitting down and ask me wat r u doin? Then I was like huh? Know sumthing wents wrong then I laugh and sit down immediately. Actually it is not our turn to leave the hall but other courses. omg~ luckily i juz stand up and not leaving the hall. Haiz… Now, I will hv 3 weeks holiday but dun think I hv that much holiday ler.. Waiting for semester 3 which falls on 6th of March. Anyway, will be going to hv fun with my frenz. After exams, hv to relax now. Feeling very tired now..Hv to sleep now..