WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

My cousins have went back today…Christine and Joachim is the 1st who went back 1st. Din even say bye to them coz Im still sleeping. hehe…Anyway, I will be seeing all of them at April including Chu’s family for grandma’s b’day. See ya guys soon. Well, what makes me unforgettable during this CNY is I drink beer..OMG!!! hehe…I drink bit only la so I din get drunk. Oh! i did tried Hennesy and wine too. Beer, wine,hennesy all tastes bitter. The 1st time I drink alchohol. Thankx to Joachim…haha. Joachim and Simon even want to train me in drinking beer.haha….Want to know my limit. I wonder how i look when im drunk.hehe..

Well, for me cny is over dy and I hv to start study now. haiz…Still hv 2 more papers next week. :/ I hope I can do well for this 2 papers and no running out of time. If not, Im so dead. Gambate!!!

First, Happy Chinese New Year to all my family members and frenz out there. May every1 hv a splendid year ahead. Well, I wish this year would be a blessed year to me with happiness. Yesterday was the reunion dinner and as usual all the kids eat together at outside and the adults eat at inside. Well,Im not a kid la but hv fun eating woth our cousins…hehe.. I havent seen my cousins for such a long time. Well, we only see each other 2 times a year. sigh~ Michelle has grown taller(I think), Andrew is still d same, Rachael still likes to read storybooks, Cheryl is the cutest…she change a lot..most important she’s cute. haha…Christine looks pretty and Joachim is handsome..haha…All this cute cute cousins of mine that I can only meet them twice a year. Muz treasure evry moment together. It’s time for our satay and "luk luk" (in cantonese). Im sure my bro and Joachim will eats a lot….haha…Gong Xi Fatt Chai!!!!!

Finally, finished EP and Law dy. EP was quite ok but Law….haiz…Feel disappointed again. Running out of time again, this time I really can’t finish. Even I know how to answer is also useless…I was so angry of myself again as I fail to control my tears again. Damn!!! Hate it!!! Frustrated… I dun want to cry wan….but everytime i oso fail to control my tears. Sorry guys…I should be as tough as u guys but i fail to do it. Darn!!!…I juz hate myself. Anyway is already a past. I can’t change anything but to accept the truth. I already try my very best and battle till the last minute of exam. Now i juz hope 4 the best…Pls pray 4 me…

After exam, go JJ with Jen, Jane and Clarine…relax after exam. 2 more paper to go which is Drama and PR. Tomorrow will be going to my grandma hse 4 reunion dinner. Cousins will be back tomorrow and some will be staying at my place.

*Always remember that what seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise.*

Well, exams have started. Finished 2 papers dy which is BM and English. Today’s paper(English) is a disappointing one…Obviously, I dun hv enough time. Although I manage to finish it but still im not satisfy with it. Time pass so fast whenever im having exam. Y can’t it slow down? haiz…Usually, I use 1 or more than 1 hours to finish an essay but today…guess wat? I use only 20 minutes to complete an essay. It’s bad…I dun even hv the time to think carefully b4 i write it and my hand is writting non-stop even the last minute of the exam. Im totally frustrated that time!!! And gosh…I nearly did sumthing that nobody will expected. Er…i nearly want to push away the table and chair to let go my emotion that time. NEARLY…but luckily I can control my emotion. If not, Im so dead dy.Instead of doing that, I cried. Wat a shame? I shouldn’t cry as i promise to be tough!!! I failed to be tough again. I dunno wat had happen to me this year??!!! As I hv high expectation this time…in the past, Im not like that!!! I alwiz juz pray to get a pass but this time……..I oso dunno y…Confused about myself nowadays!!! Is it so important to get an A? Or 4.0? Y i want As and 4.0 so much? Is it for myself or parents? Frustrated… Well,looking forward to do better in the next paper. Thankx to all my frenz out there who support me…

Today is the last day of semester 2 ler…Well, what hv I been doing in this sem? Im still blur…but i enjoy every sem at college. All this will be an unforgettable memories 4 me. Next wednesday will be having exam ler…Nervous and scared, normal feelings 4 everyone. I really really hope I do well in this exam. Wish everyone all the best in the exam. May God bless us….

~Do not let what you cannot do to interfere with what you can do. Just focus on your goal.~

Well, exams is around d corner and d 1st paper falls on Jan 18. Haiz…Exams makes everyone stress and emotional. Im competing with myself in exam. I hope I can do better than last semester but it’s seem difficult. Hope to maintain my GPA…I juz read a blog that is written by my fren. Well, she hate failures. Everyone hate failures too…but CONFUCIUS say that "Our greatest glory is not in never failing but in rising everytime we fall". This is the only way to succeed. That day Cik Noor wants us to sign a contract with her regarding our new year resolution. My new year resolution is change to be firm in order to be a gd leader and be tough. Sem 3 starts….I’ll slowly change..hehe…Hope i can succeed la!

Life n death is not within our control. If someone has gone but he/she must hv left memories 4 u. Cherish them in heart. And more than that, cherish those who r still around. This is an advice frm a fren of mine. Thankx….

At last, I wish 18 of us(DPR) good luck in our final exam. We can do it!!!! Ganbate…We will pass all the exams together.

Happy New Year 2006 to everyone out there. Hv a splendid year ahead…Time really flies ya!! It’s year 2006 now. Still can’t really believe it as my mind is still thinking of 2005. haiz..Anyway, life still goes on but hope to improve it.

My New Year Revolution :

1) Succed in evrything i do especially in studies.

2) Be a good leader, student, daughter…

3) Happy alwiz.

May the God alwiz be with me in everything I do.