WoRLd oF mY oWn, My LiFe

2nd update frm Liverpool. It shows that Im lazy to update. Haha! Just went to ODEAN and watch Transformers 2 today. It’s awesome! Bumblebee is still so cute & Optimus Prime still rocks! Awaiting for my another all time fav movie - Harry Potter. What else shud I say? Assignments are still queing up as usual. Hope I can manage them and hope I will NOT get any upsets/disappointment. High expectation equals to stress and leads to the outcome of either to be happy or upset. Sounds complicated huh? That’s me! whatsoever mood comes in when I’m doing my assignments…=.= However, ’strong wings of a butterfly’ will just go through each hurdles infront.

I just read a fren’s blog. Doesn’t exactly know what she means, but just feel that she has serious sickness. Again, I doesn’t like bad news. Who like bad news anyway? Hope everyone is doing fine. Wish she’s fine too…although I didn’t recieve ur mail of updates, but sincerely saying pls do take k~

‘Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what u want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down’ -Oprah Winfrey. Luv this quote. A quote that explains everything. nah… Got it?
-Off to bed- *trip to whitby*

Looking out the window~

Staring at the blue sky no matter is gloomy /sunny~

aeroplane…seagull…

And I’m Thinking…Thinking & Thinking…

I’ve been thinking all the time. Nobody knows what’s in my mind, and I doesn’t want others to know. Mysterious it seems…complicated it seems…

Once I made up my mind, I will doubt about it…The problem exists whenever I made up my mind! Maybe I’m just too afraid..Afraid I’ll regret…I guess I’m worrying too much! In conclusion, I’m just so wasting time! I’m not going to stop thinking until I get it right. Clear images pls~~~

It’s been a long time for not updating and so here am I. People do change & looking back to primary school, high school days, diploma, adv diploma…Each stages made me change frm top to bottom…if only u noticed that Being who am I today isn’t an easy path, I’ve been going through a lot of pains, standing up again & again…And I always need to thank a few persons as they changed my life. *The Chrysalis who breaks the cocoon*- That’s the phrase that 1 of my fren use to describe me. Thank u very much & do wish me strong wings of a butterfly to explore my new found world-UK. Hence, here am I at Liverpool…

Everything is fine for me so far. My frenz said I can adapt the culture very fast. Haha! It’s because this is what I waited for…this is what I want since long time ago. If u know me well, aha..u will know! :p Most of them predict that once I’m here, I won’t come back or forget to come back. One of my fren says Only if I find some once dear to me, then in that case I can stay. LOLZ! Anyway, I will just follow the flow but I kinda made up my mind, still in doubt anyway. Well, the weather at Liverpool is so cold & windy. Who says summer is hot? haha! I’m shivering & freezing when I’m out during night time. I wonder how winter looks like. Even though I did experienced once at Korea. Hopefully I can get used to the weather after a few weeks perhaps…Besides, I experienced a long walk almost everyday, can just walk for few hours non-stop. In the end, my leg is cramp. T.T Walking around at Liverpool is quite ok as at least it’s more plesant to walk in that weather compared to M’sia. Heard that the haze is back over there and suffocated feeling at outdoor. Pray that everyone is fine & healthy. Do take care ya! Class will commence on this coming monday, so I can just let my hair down for this few precious days. Till then, XOXO….

People often know how to appreciate when things are not around…by that time everything is too late.

- Thanks for being a great fren to me by giving endless encouragements & supports for me. Though, I’m not a gd fren. I know u never blame me but that makes me feel guilty. The more u treat me gd, the more I feel guilty. Now that u’re gone, I do regret for not meeting u when u call last time… I couldn’t believe the last 2 weeks is actually our last conversation thru on9. U ask me when i can hv lunch wif u…I nvr said yes nor no…I juz shifted the question. I regret for doing that. I should hv say, lets go tomorrow! Another matter I hv to be regret is I once rejected to take a pic wif u. I shouldn’t do that. That day is ur b’day, when I wanted to wish u that time, I saw the shoutout and status, I couldn’t believe it and hope it’s not true. I was seeking for answers & reasons. The next day when ur bro told me everything, I know that I hv to faced the truth. It’s been a long time that I never cry but tears roll down juz like that which makes me feel so weak…so useless… I knew u hv gone thru a lot and I want to say that u r really tough. I can imagine how pain it is and how cruel am I. I still remember how we know each other, the 1st time we met…etc etc…All this will be kept in my memories. -

最佳位置- this is the song u sent to me b4 and it touches me when the 1st time I listen to it. ~Thanks for everything~

*May u rest in peace* God Bless…

If everyone is happy about the decision u made except urself, will u change it to make urself happy?

If everyone is unhappy about the decision u made except urself, will u still remain ur decision?

Questions…Full of question marks!!!  Doubts (again & again) I think that’s the most difficult decision I hv to made. Already made my mind but it seems more & more ppl coming on my way giving advices, suggestions etc. What infuences me is there is one person who can influences me…understands me very well…did not force me to do the things I do not like…supports me… I really do not wish to let down this person & I really wish to help… Is it time for a change? I’m not sure… It’s just like letting ur dream slip away just as easy as that But don’t feel like letting go…And I do not wish to let down them. Isn’t it a happy ending if u can have both?

Shift to something relaxing b4 headache strucks. Finally, I got my camera ^^ It’s a Canon Ixus 95…coming all the way from S’pore. I just found out that my dearie - Raymond is helding his very own first concert on June *Claps* *Cheers* Too bad it’s in HK… Really wish I can attend this concert. I really hope he can also organize one in KL. I’m going to make myself to sit in the front seat if the day comes :)All the best to him!

 Till then…More things to be done & think…-_-

After the 2 weeks of e-learning class, back to Ipoh again. The 2 weeks class was tiring. Lolz! Reading those journals make me yawn all the way~T_T  Attend a few gatherings. Thanks to my frenz. U guyz makes me feel touched & I did had a great day. Except for 1 of the gathering, as something bad happen. Panny & I went to celebrate Funny’s b’day. That’s where my new name comes in. Call me Ms. Happy. Thx to Funny for the wonderful name. :) We took lots of pics but no use as the camera has gone~~~:( Pity my fren who was met the 2 snatch thieves while she was waiting at the traffic. They use something to smash the car glasses & took away her bag. There are so many cars over there, the thieves are still so brave! Curse them~~~ Luckily that time I havent take the lrt…Drive her to the Police Station & send her back. Thank God she is not hurt! Note to everyone: pls be careful, do not put ur bag on the seat ya!

Although I’m in Ipoh, but still have to log in to the blackboard everyday. Speaking of this, I’m so fed up & angry with the line!!! It took me hours to log in & post up something. So so fed up la! Today, when I was typing, my stupid hand accidentally deleated the post that I have finish written. Geramnya~ So, I have to re-type again, this time I type by using the microsoft word so I can save my work. However after waiting for so long to submit my work, I found out that there are some error & mistake…. Wanted to edit or delete but cannot T_T Drive me up to the wall only!! Honestly, I do not have patience in 2 things. 1st is on the road…2nd is the Internet line…Done with the e-learning this evening, plan to relax a bit at night but I still hv 2 comprehension passages to complete. Help my fren to edit & try the excercise as she is publishing a book. Congratz!!! I hv completed 1 comprehension passage. Plan to complete another one…hopefully by tomorrow.

Results has released and I’m finally done with TARC.  Msg 1 of my fren and I think she is happier than me. She was planning to celebrate my achievement etc etc etc. Thank u so much! U r the one who support & guide me along whenever I fell. So , this achievement is dedicated to u Time flies, kinda miss the moments I hv spent in this place.  Aww~ Thanks to dearest akane who drive us to visit so many places & I enjoy all those nice & sumptous foods too
Awaiting for other upcoming gatherings so that I will be bk to KL again…Hope it is happening.

Finally, Im here to update ^^ Im back to Ipoh. I’m here feeling exhausted after spending 4 days at KL & Genting. Went back to KL that day to pack up all my stuff then the next day went to Midvalley to watch Ong Bak 2 & Love Matters. Thanks to a fren for winning those invitations passes for us to watch the gala premier. Met Meng Hui, Tee, Kyo, Hishiko, Cheryl, Mayjune…Glad to see them; it’s great to be remembered, thanks ya! Tee even calls my name. I was surprised by him. Hehe… That’s the chance that I can chat with them as we seldom got the chance to meet each other. By the way, this movie will be released on 26 of Feb. Do support Jack Neo’s production. He’s one of the talented directors who produces educative movie.

Next destination- Genting. I’ve been waiting for this day to come since few months ago. Lolz! The Astro Drama WLT Awards!!! I had an unforgettable & memorable moment these weekends. All of the artistes look so gorgeous & daring during the red carpet. When you saw them in person, you will know how gorgeous they are. Jessica Hsuan, Joe Ma, Shirley Yeung, Ron Ng, Linda Chung, Myolie Wu, Susanna Kwan, Moses Chan, Louise Lee, Bosco Wong, Tavia Yeung, Hui Shiu Hong and Lo Koon Lan were among the stars who attend. Almost half of the tvb stars are here. Haha! That’s what Nat said. Some awards are expected but some do surprise me. Hmm~ let me share some of the best parts… Suzanna’s “講不出聲” is simply infectious as it was just like a concert. It was so touching when we watch the video played on screen & seeing her sings…Listening to Louis reciting her famous “金句” from “Heart of Greed” is great! Who would have guessed that Suzanna’s name in “Greed” is called Wong Sau Kam(黄秀琴) and if you reversed it, it turns out to be “Kam Sau Wong”( 禽兽王) ! “你撕旗” becomes “李司棋”! During the song medley, I wonder why Myolie didn’t join Linda, Raymond & Bosco. Hmm…Would really love to hear her sing. Benz Hui was hilarious. He translated the malay word - “terima kasih” (thank you) to ‘带你妈买家私’. During commercial break, everyone will be playing a fool with the artistes. Nat(Ah Lek) is still as funny as ever. Since all the rumoured couples (Bosc-olie & Ray-Da) are around, he teases them. He even “disturbed” Moses till he covered his face. He is really shy; his face was as red as a tomato. The top honours went to Moses & Louise and also “Heart of Greed”. Louise felt touched when she receives the award. Well, I’m touched too~

I think Boscolie & Rayda is the famous ‘couple’ on that night. Lolz!

Time flies & it comes to bid farewell… Most of them were wearing sunglasses. Pity them, they slept in the mid-of night & have to get up so early. All of them were exhausted except few of them who are still active J Shirley Yeung & Linda was playing with us on the bus. Both of them are best friends. Shirley even wrote a note on a tissue paper & let us see. ‘No cry! She is not sad la! She’s happy. Haha! She is really cute in person. Whenever we saw her, we would say omg~ she is so cute & adorable! J Sze Kei jie was kind enough to turn around twice. I was like ‘Lee Sze Kei’…(apologize for calling her full name, sounds weird -.- As ppl are calling her full name, I automatically followed them too, after that only realize I should call her Sze Kei Jie). Sorry ya! Anyway, she was very kind…she turn around & em…then turn around again and say bye bye. In my heart, I was thinking ‘pls watch ur steps’… Myo, remember what I have told you ya. But of coz dun get stress up! There are still many stories behind; all will be kept as a memory J If I write so detailed, it will be a long post. Lolz! I felt heavy-hearted when I saw them left…I seriously miss them. Although I’m exhausted but I do had a great time with them. The best is I met new friends…& of coz not forgetting all my ‘dearies’ J Thanks to Melinda, YimYee, Winnie, Joy, Esther, Arina, David…& Kim Leng for the cd with signature all the way frm HK (best b’day gift for me) I show it to Myo & she was glad to see it.

I juz watched the repeat of the awards this noon & I still felt so excited. Lolz! Ask my family members & u’ll know y I say Im still feeling excited. Haha! And I spot myself on TV thrice…*paiseh*  Till then, see ya!

 p/s put up a few photos…:) click the image to hv a clearer pic

Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her:

1. She’s my net friend, a very friendly girl
2. She love Rain very much (can see from her friendster profile)
3. She loves being unique
4. She’s having her semester break now…hehe!
5. She always tries her best to do something
6. She blogs to express her feelings (am I right?)
7. She is loyal
8. She would not cry for movies, dramas or novels…
9. She gives me an impression of a girl who is independent, hardworking…
10. She loves to read & write (hopefully I’m right)

The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself:
now here’s the best part.

1. I am who I am…Love to be whoever I want to be…
2. I’m a simple person who has complicated thinking
3. I hate two-faced people, betrayer & being bullied/treated like a toy…
4. I’m not easy to understand
5. I’m soft-hearted & I hate being like that as people tend to take advantage
6. I love to talk when i’m comforatable with the one I’m talkin to
7. I will cry for movies, dramas when I feel touched
8. I love to travel especially going overseas
9. I love watching movies; dramas etc…love TVB so much! Lolz
10. I care for others more than myself but depends whether the person is worth for me to care about

Here’s the twist, if I tagged you, and when you must write something about me, you can only take 5 or less from the above. The other 5 or more will have to be from you. At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names:

Partial Sum

Pei Yee

Pui Yeing

Fresh

Lydia

Staphy

Jerrick

(Juz randomly pick a few…hehe! )

CNY has officially over. What’s next? I had been staying at home for many days…hmm~~~ My daily routine watching TV (apparently, that’s my favorite), do some reading, housework etc etc etc. Sounds boring huh? Anyway, I’m preparing to go Genting for the Astro WLT Drama Award soon. Thx to a fren for the ticket. I knew it wasn’t easy. Heard from others that the ticket giveout function starts at 3pm but people start to queue up frm 10am. Omg~ swt…

Guess what~ He & She is coming (Guess who are they :p) Double Happiness, Double Joy for me! It’s the 5th annual drama awards…It means I miss the previous 4 ones…Finally I got the chance to attend this time. All of a sudden, thought of Raymond…recall back during cny, all of us were watching astro WLT & he was singing that time, all the little ones (my cousins) said he isn’t handsome..etc etc followed by Bosco, Ron, Bowie…all those funny comments make rofl…lolz! especially d comment towards Bowie. Except Kevin Cheng, no comment at all! Really funny~

Met up with bestie few days ago and she suggested Sushi King for our lunch. Told her I’m on diet. Lolz! However, she keeps taking sushi for me to eat. ‘U should eat more’, that’s what she say.  Thanks for the treat again. I told her I won’t eat next time when we meet as she will be the one who pay every time. Although she do not mind but I still feel bad~ Anyway, I do appreciate what you have done –the first person whom I will often turn up to, believe in me, understands me, accept me for being who I am…

It is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe, having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words.

Although, I never say it out, but I truly appreciate & promise to be there for u no matter what happens…

Happy Valentines Day! Apparently, none of my business. Lolz! 

-Treasure ur loved ones -

* I wanna watch Bride Wars, Red Cliff II, All’s Well End’s Well 2009, The Wedding Game…all in ‘awaiting’ list!!!*

Yo~ how’s everyone’s cny? Basically the whole thingy about cny is eating, recieving ang pows…seldom stay at home…bla bla bla and there it continues~ Seriously, I ate a lot, couldn’t stop eating…BUT I did control the amount I told everyone I was on diet…when i start eating, all my aunt, cousins said ‘i thought u r on diet’… ‘I juz eat a little’/It’s cny…I will keep fit after that! LOLZ! Temptation…I juz can’t get away from that! Lots of sumptous, nice food can only be eaten during cny. I’m glad that I din gain weight Bump into a few frenz when I went out wif my cousins, all of them say I was slim! *grinning frm ear to ear* I would always told them I still wanna keep fit! It’s easy to gain weight, but it’s difficult to regain ur original weight; hence keep fit is always the best! Well, the Yau’s family couldn’t join us this year…Really hope all the Chu’s,Yau’s family & others can join us for next year cny or maybe all of us shud hv a family gathering.

I’m glad to meet my nephew-Dominic this cny. I met him once when he was juz born and now he has grown up~ boy oh boy…he’s such a cute * handsome boy! Luv his eng scent . Sheryl & Racheal has gd eng scent too. Sheryl enjoyed singing all d way. Surprisingly, she can sings all the high school musical songs and even Rihanna’s ‘UMBRELLA’! A 6 year old gal (if im not mistaken, too much cousins, can’t remember all their age :p can speaks, sings, read well!!! I was wondering what I was doing when I was 6. U’ll know it urself when u speak to them… I can say they are quite mature too. Apparently, I hv to hang out more with them so I can speak as well as them.

However this cny…there is still some disappointment. I’m disappointed with some ppl. I guess I would just let it be…let it go…I’m tired to ask for reasons & so on!  I do not rely on ppl who do not rely on me. I’m tired of being a ‘good’ person always. *Full stop*

-了解你的人不需要你解释或给任何原因；不了解你的人，就算你再怎样解释都好，他们还是不会了解你的-